have you ever wondered whether or not you want to be loved?
have you ever wondered whether or not you want to be loved unconditionally?

what if you want to be liked this, much, not that much, at this time, not that time, in this way, not that way
what if you want exactly what you predict, with exactly the right kind of surprises mixed in?

if commitment makes you uneasy, seeing a man in front of you
who feels committed, or willing to commit,
wouldn't that disgust you?
I don't know. There are things I need to learn, perhaps things I fear
things I fear will change me once I accept them.