Throughout my life ive always paid special attention to people who consider themselves outcast. Whether or not its people making themselves outcast, or people being made outcast by a group, they look different, the act different, they think different. When I see people like that, I just feel this kinship. I guess I'm coming to terms with my weaknessess. Hanging out with outsiders makes me not have to worry so much :) I dont like apologising for who I am!

man I swear some days I wake up and its like im in a different life. everything around feels wrong, and I have no idea why. nothing to blame, nothing in particular to point a finger at. just.. uneasy. i think sometimes being a romantic kind of wears me down. I go out at night expecting to have random encounters with people ive never met that change my life. I mean, that HAS happened, and probably more often than I think, but I want more. arrgh.