I have a few songs I love. Love love love to the point that I cant do much else than enjoy them when they are playing. I was scared I wouldnt have this feeling forever, so I stopped listening to them for a couple of months. Im listening to them again now. DOES absense make the heart grow fonder? I dunno. I do feel really good right now, though.

Fun fact:
I get overstimulated REALLY easily.

Just saw a movie.

Dan in Real Life

Its really good. It made me want to scream. when I get overstimulated, I want to like flail around and scream and freak out. its totally wierd. Ill get in these moods that are totally out of place and wierd. In my head it makes sense; like I realize something awesome that I didnt know, some sort of self-actualizating thoughts, and I grin as hard as I can, and I stifle a scream. it sounds like "eeeee!" when I stifle a sceam, by the way. God, it happens soo much, its like just below the surface I want to explode! some day I will write a song designed to release this energy. Woe to the listeners.

I keep thinking blog-worthy thoughts at work only to find they are gone when I get home. Its like different places "store" my thoughts. I guess thats what a memory is though. Wierd... I could have sworn I read an article about this at work the other night...
:P

I feel soo fluid.

Positive:
Im slowly learning about myself, and i love the independance I have now. I control my life!

Negative:
I feel like I cant trust anything or anyone for 100% sure. Its like walking on a waterbed.

+:
My house, my rules. AND im making money!

-:
Where did all my high school friends go?


Good:
I get to see sunrises and full moons.

Bad:
I sleep when everyone has the social time.


Yeah!:
I can finally practice guitar whenever I want!

BOO!:
and yet I havent much... damn atrophic freedom!

Love you.

What makes a person human?

Lets look at the range of answers here, from the mundane to the philosophical.
Is humanity something you are born with? I think so, because babies cant really make decisions about their personalities. As we go through life, we change based on our decisions. Who could I have been if I acted differently? A person living life can lose their humanity if they become slaves to things they hate.

Being able to figure things out doesn't necessarily make you any more able to deal with what you now understand. I never really understood the difference between intelligence and wisdom until recently. I need more wisdom. On a lighter note, I'm really excited about the biweekly random mini-jams me and a friend will be holding at random spots in Parksville. I finally get a no pressure way to perform for people who actually want to hear my playing.

Music
Is
Everything
And
Nothing

Stop me if im being pretentious. Oh, you cant stop me? Too bad, I guess. When I hear a band I like, I get obsessive. I listen to EVERY song, including b-sides, rarities, and covers. Then I listen to live versions of as many songs as I can. I even read each interview the band gave. I do all this because I want to know exactly what mindset and influence created each and every sound. Obsessive, yeah. Anyone wanna suggest a band for me? lemme know. Music is everything because it has super amazing magic powers to dictate and control our mood. Music is nothing because it wont physically do anything. Music wont end a war, but it may inspire someone to.

SNAPSHOT:

Im on the computer. Bashu is in bed beside me. Kian is on the couch in the other room. I just had a bunch of people over, and they all had a pretty good time. I feel best when I am surrounded by friends... I am learning more and more how powerful friendship and love are. By "Powerful", I mean a mixture between really good in that I feel great when I have it, and really bad because I face depression when I don't, or when I dwell on lost ones.

Anyway, G'night beautiful.

PS

JAMES IS BACK!!!