the whole idea that you just deserve it is fucked up.
there is a very selfish side to being in love, or wishing you were.
we all live in our own heads, it makes us predispositioned to be selfish when it comes to love I guess. To be honest, Id just like to find someone who enjoys themselves and what they do, and if I found myself admiring that person for who they are, separate from me, that would be half of what would be a happy ending.

as for the other half, well I just gotta stop thinking I automatically deserve it. I heard somewhere doing that was fucked up.