I feel soo fluid.
Positive:
Im slowly learning about myself, and i love the independance I have now. I control my life!
Negative:
I feel like I cant trust anything or anyone for 100% sure. Its like walking on a waterbed.
+:
My house, my rules. AND im making money!
-:
Where did all my high school friends go?
Good:
I get to see sunrises and full moons.
Bad:
I sleep when everyone has the social time.
Yeah!:
I can finally practice guitar whenever I want!
BOO!:
and yet I havent much... damn atrophic freedom!
Love you.
Friday, October 5, 2007
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Hey, tonight I am going to talk about the saddest thing in the whole world.
Just kidding! I have no idea how to fairly judge what is more sad and what is less sad. I haven't had a "good" (read: long) post for a while, so here goes.
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Memory.. is
arrgggh
ARRRGH!
Music ! ARRRGH!
blah!
ok, ill explain this. When I find a song I love it triggers my memories. Broken Social scene, for example, seeps me in memories of past love, one sided love, and wistfulness in general. I keep getting flashbacks to girls who at one point knew me, and we cared about each other. Then, cause the internet is good for creepy people like me, I get to randomly see these people's lives on Facebook, etc.
I just stare at the screen and I cant stop thinking about the past. I bet you could have guessed this, but I don't really function like a regular person when it comes to relationships. I never really "get over" someone I care about. Its always there, one way or another. I can still have new relationships, and they are just as awesome. But as time goes on, I get overwhelmed with all of them, all at once. Fucking memories! I am incapable of forgetting each and every time I made her care. Each and every time she told me I mattered. FUUUCK!
SHE can forget, and move on.
Why cant I?
I cant stop loving people? this is weird...
Just kidding! I have no idea how to fairly judge what is more sad and what is less sad. I haven't had a "good" (read: long) post for a while, so here goes.
umm
umm
umm
Memory.. is
arrgggh
ARRRGH!
Music ! ARRRGH!
blah!
ok, ill explain this. When I find a song I love it triggers my memories. Broken Social scene, for example, seeps me in memories of past love, one sided love, and wistfulness in general. I keep getting flashbacks to girls who at one point knew me, and we cared about each other. Then, cause the internet is good for creepy people like me, I get to randomly see these people's lives on Facebook, etc.
I just stare at the screen and I cant stop thinking about the past. I bet you could have guessed this, but I don't really function like a regular person when it comes to relationships. I never really "get over" someone I care about. Its always there, one way or another. I can still have new relationships, and they are just as awesome. But as time goes on, I get overwhelmed with all of them, all at once. Fucking memories! I am incapable of forgetting each and every time I made her care. Each and every time she told me I mattered. FUUUCK!
SHE can forget, and move on.
Why cant I?
I cant stop loving people? this is weird...
Monday, October 1, 2007
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