Today was a blur and the good and the bad and the food and the time were all good but why?

Tonight is a dream where i felt guilty and i told you so and i wish i was there for you that one time.

Tomorrow will be bittersweet, as my time of relaxation will come to an end and i will return to the KatimaLife. However, we ARE on the home stretch, arent we?

You made me feel bad for calling, and your reasoning makes sense. so I dont call. niether do you. I told you how I felt about this and you told me you would respond later and you didnt. and I promised I wouldnt complain; yer here I am. do you care? i think you do. i just wish it felt like it more often. is that what i control? i guess so. just call! just smile! just say anything nice! just remind me you care! just do ANYTHING i wouldnt expect! but that wont happen. if i hold back and wait, nothing ever happens. i DO NOT trust you to come to me. no one ever does. and i can stop coming to people, but i never wait long enough. its not my nature. goddamnit give me something.

Played some Magic tourney; met someone cool from new brunswick, listened to iron & wine. I have an amazing life.

:D another good day last night. this morning im sure I had an amazing dream, but I forget it. dang! what a tragic feeling. in a good way.

So, tonight was a good night. WAS. i went out for a bike ride, met some col people, saw a band from winnipeg play. super cool, been waiting to meet cool musicians around here. but now, im sick! i cant even fucking sleep. i dont want to get into what kind of sick, but its the kind that will keep me in and out of the bathroom all night. sigh..
anyway, good day overall.

man, i could be outside falling in love right now! but im inside learning guitar.
I could be outside seeing the world right now! but im inside playing DOTA.
I could be at the mall, lookin fly as hell! but im not. im sitting here, writing to you!

its alright.