Something I wish I could say to people when I first meet them who end up leaving without explaining why:
"Hello. My name is Jesse. You are probably going to feel overwhelmed as a result of something I say or do. I want to apologise in advance for that. I have one favour to ask you. When you decide to leave, be it due to exhaustion, fear, discomfort, a desire for safety, or simply lack of interest, would you be willing to someday tell me why? Not the nice why, not the why we have been trained to say and hear and handle, but the dark, disgusting, soul-crushing truth that sometimes people simply decide to end a connection? Of course it breaks my heart when this happens, but that is what my heart does. it breaks. it breaks at the silliest times, it breaks so easily. I am tender and brash, I cannot take what I give. Please, please, please be honest with me. And when you aren't, please be honest afterwards, someday."
I do not edit these at all. I just type out what I wrote down, which also wasnt edited. This blog is not me showing you (who are you, anyway?) stuff I consider perfectly formed or whatever, its just raw material. I tend to use these later on to make more fully formed things (songs, for example), but this is me sharing my first impression, sketches, and feelings with anyone and everyone.
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Monday, March 4, 2013
what if someone expressed the frustration at not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration of not being able to express the frustration as well as that person did?
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