im still here. Im still here. Im still here.

Im still facing the same problems; but they all look and feel different if I dont think about it too much. Some things have gotten better. Ive gotten better at handling the ones that havent. Im at once happy with the way things are going and anxious for how they could change.

SO basically just another day. I have something in common with someone who doesnt act like me a lot: we both get caught up in the moment, emotionally speaking.

alright.

I made a mix CD!

Fuck this Im going with my gut.

I get that feeling sometimes.

Maybe?

HAHAHAHH!

Hot and sticky. Sitting on a bench, waiting. Waiting for someone. Scared... no. Anxious. The feeling that you aren't really living in a the moment your body is in. You are already in that moment you are looking forward to. Even though you cant predict the details of what will happen, it feels like its already happening. Then, its happening. And you still cant really feel right. You feel like you are remembering it, not experiencing it. Its so strange. Then you walk home, wearing a white t-shirt. She gave it to you. It smells like her; the smell triggers something. Only as you walk home, you start feeling like its happening. You close your eyes, and you are experiencing it for the first time.